pc
I am utterly frustrated and desperate. I don’t know what to do…I need money real bad and I feel like I’m not capable of getting a job. I applied to three places, two of which i felt I had the job…one of which didn’t even respond. I sent my portfolio into 2 design places (the other of the 3 places being apple)…which simply wasn’t enough. I’ve contacted a couple other places with no reply.
I mean I know I’m not an art student…but I thought my portfolio is somewhat strong.
I guess it’s mostly frustrating because when I apply somewhere and give them my work…they’re really judging their acceptance of me based on how good they think I am…and so I’m really putting myself out there for their judgement. It’s not like they just look at some application and see that I’m old enough and have enough summer job experience, but they actually look into my skills and judge/scrutinize every aspect of my talent/work…and by not getting these jobs I simply feel like I’m not good enough.
Apple was probably the most frustrating, because after interview 2/3, I was basically told I had the job, and the 3rd interview was pretty much a formality. That’s why I’m switching to pc…no more mac for me.
I sneezed over 100 times today, and probably will sneeze at least that many tomorrow. Working outside has its perks, but this is probably my 4th summer with Murray Lightscaping…pay is nice, hours are flexible, but not enough to pay for the cost of living and saving.
It’s frustrating and demoralizing.
I need a job…and some cash flow.
I need connections to start actually connecting & working instead of laying stagnant.
I’m switching to PC.
